Life rant, please bypass
DAMMIT I FEEL BAD AND IMMATURE BECAUSE I always wanna go out and do shit with my friends but my parents are strict and have all these rules and restrictions like: I can’t get in a car with anyone my parents haven’t met AND they also have to have met the parents of said person, I can hardly go anywhere or to anyone’s house or have anyone come over unless my mother has a conversation on the phone with their parents, and even people who she’s done all of these things she still feels the need to make phone calls to be assured that parents are going to be present and doesn’t trust when I say that parents will be. It’s really getting on my nerves because I’m not six years old anymore, and I’d like to be able to do things without being hounded like this or displayed as a dependent child. Other than the typical necessities, I’m typically not that dependent. I can take care of myself just fine, and my parents are even AWARE of this fact. But I’m getting so tired of the routine and all the rules and restrictions and I usually always follow them (yeah, I have slip-ups, but I’m only human), so of course when I’m conversing with my mother about them, I get snappy and kinda bitchy. Not like full-scale defiance and disrespect, but my responses thereafter are short and clipped and I suppose with a “tone”. It’s just that it is so beyond infuriating and I’ve literally grown up to be communicatively inept that behaving as such is the only way that I can get any sort of point across. And then, the very SECOND I inquire why all of it is necessary, and/or blatantly verbally express my dislike of it, BOOM, shot down. Scolded and given a generic parent excuse.
Now, I’m left wondering if my bitchy reaction and my mother’s outward calmness is some sort of test, if she’s gauging in her head how “ready” I am to socialize without her breathing down my back 24/10, or if she’s just stubbornly going to be overly protective and strict until I’m out of the house.
I don’t want to be immature about it, and I still do as she says when I want to go out. But it’s just so embarrassing for me and I wish she’d let up a bit. I’m only getting older and just thinking of the next three years being this way makes me nauseous and gives me a headache. I get it, I’m not that old, I’m reminded of it every other damn day of my life. But come on, I’d like to try to fly a little bit sometimes. I don’t want to be held onto for so long, considering I started letting go a while back
myfaceinalocket replied to your photo:Even on the days I’m not very cute like today, I…
CAMERON YOU ARE SUCH A CUTIE I LOVE YOU
THANK YOU DARLING I LOVE YOU TOO
No but really when you start geeking out about something your cuteness level goes up like 10000% like I dont care if its chemistry or pokemon when you get really excited about something and I can see you totally love it its really fuckin attractive ok ok
“That’s my secret Mulan… I’m always off groove”
when he’s angry he turns into a giant llama